.... I remember I was going to explain the guilt I discovered when I was processing the guilty feelings of not having scrapbooked for several months.....
This newly discovered guilty feeling I believe is what will keep me on track - taking photos, writing stories that explain those photos and in that process I will be able to indulge in pretty papers, paints and all manner of crafting things, and put part of me into every layout I create.
This guilt is best described as - if I dont tell the stories of the photos then who will.
For many years I have sole parented my children, they dont have contact with their biological fathers, all grandparents, save for one grandmother who chooses not to stay in touch, have passed away. There is no one who can pick up their baby photo albums, their childhood photo albums and explain why that day was important, or why that photo was taken, or who those other people in the photo are..... no one..... only me ..... so if I dont take the time, make the effort, who will?
All those photos will still exist but they will seem one dimensional to my children, they wont seem as important or special or significant if they dont hear and read the details.
As I scrapped my first few layouts after having so much time away from this papercrafting that I love, I realised how much time has gone by and how I may struggle to remember the details even if it has only been a year or so. And then I felt the deepest, saddest emotion of...... guilt ...... and the lightbulb moment of why I scrapbooked in the first place.... so that my children will have more, much more that just photo albums, they will have stories and details that they wouldn't otherwise read, hear or know.
And I will do my best so that they, and their children and their children will have insights into the lives of those that have gone before them.
And they will be in the form of photos, stories and lots of paper!
Scrapbooks.....
And lots of them!
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